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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

13.06.2025 06:03

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Why did i forgive my father ?

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

She was in good health!

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I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

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I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

I never cut or harmed myself..

Why is it easy to make money in the USA?

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

Why do many women wear sleeveless shirts, more so than men?

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

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I will be 64.

Especially a lifetime of it.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Why do many women like tall men?

When she asked me how she looked .

My family never makes their pension either.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

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This is soul school!.

He knew the spot.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

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I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

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Why does it smell so bad? I noticed that when I move around my vagina has a stench. It’s usually a wet liquid, almost like pee. There’re little to no discharge and it doesn’t hurt or itch.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

My mum and dad in the seventies!

One cannot live in the past .

Why do narcissist move on so easily?

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

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I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

How does growing up in chaos affect a child as they become an adult?

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

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She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

(And it was in our own minds.)

I've never read the book. What did Dorian Grey do that was so immoral and sinful?

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

My life is so biszare .

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

So, i spoilt her more .

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

All the time i was locked up.

We all went to grammer schools

I was very sick at this time too.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

Was to survive, this bastard.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Who then, do I blame.?

But ive been too sick for many years..

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

Comes on , in middle age.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

As i do to all so called friends.?

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

But it wasn’t much.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

She loved him until the end.

I couldn’t, believe it.

And i lived it daily.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

Put me off passion for life!!

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

I said to her

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

Ive learnt so much.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

I was seconnd youngest,

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

I could never make a relationship work though!

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

What did i know ?

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Im dying but, im not bitter.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

He resisted the act ,that day.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

She found it foreign!.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

I have no regrets .

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

I was scared of men, in general

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

She married twice! .

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

It was going to be , some day.

She wouldn,t have been !

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Im still living with it.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

I was 9 years of age.

I think the readers, may guess!

I did it because my mum asked me too!

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

The only rule us 5 kids had .

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Would this be the day?

But, we were locked up after school.

So whats the point in blame.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

I don,t even have a pension.

We were not on the streets..

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

I waited trembling.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

I write beautiful poetry .

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years