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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

11.06.2025 08:27

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

She found it foreign!.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

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They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

One cannot live in the past .

Why do I sweat so much after shower?

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

I think the readers, may guess!

She loved him until the end.

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I have no regrets .

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

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We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Would you date/marry a guy younger than you? If no, why not?

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

But it wasn’t much.

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Was to survive, this bastard.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

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I never cut or harmed myself..

I said to her

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

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Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

He knew the spot.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

Why would my ex block me after I blocked him?

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

I waited trembling.

Is it painful for men to wear bras, panties, and tampons?

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

What is the most interesting question you can ask to get to know someone?

What did i know ?

As i do to all so called friends.?

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

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Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

I write beautiful poetry .

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Why cant I breathe when I sleep on my back, I can breathe if im on my side or stomach but I feel uncomfortable since either my neck is twisted or my back is in pain, im physically healthy and my surroundings are clean so whats the problem?

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

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We all went to grammer schools

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

I know ,a lot about trauma.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

My life is so biszare .

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

I was 9 years of age.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

My mum and dad in the seventies!

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

They are buried together, in the same grave..

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Why did i forgive my father ?

All the time i was locked up.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

I couldn’t, believe it.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

But ive been too sick for many years..

Im still living with it.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

I will be 64.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

I don,t even have a pension.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

I was seconnd youngest,

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

I could never make a relationship work though!

Comes on , in middle age.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

And who doesn’t know suffering?

She married twice! .

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Ive learnt so much.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

Especially a lifetime of it.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

But, we were locked up after school.

So whats the point in blame.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

Put me off passion for life!!

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

(And it was in our own minds.)

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

We were not on the streets..

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

She was in good health!

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

And i lived it daily.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

Who then, do I blame.?

He resisted the act ,that day.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Would this be the day?

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

She wouldn,t have been !

My family never makes their pension either.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

When she asked me how she looked .

I was very sick at this time too.

So, i spoilt her more .

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

On the 31st of Jan this month .

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

It was going to be , some day.

I was scared of men, in general

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

This is soul school!.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.